Awww, Nahla this is really sweet and I am very, very glad that the GOF means so much to you and that as a community we could be a support in hard times
That the GOF does have this meaning to even one of us (and I know it does to many more) then a good part of the last 10 years were really put to good purpose by us. Knowing this really means a lot to me too and your message really did put me in a better mood too. Thank you for that
You mention suicide in your message too. As one who has had such thought (though never
ever on a more concrete level than thought, never as actual intention) please remember when there are the times in which such thoughts haunt you, remember the good sides of this world and the miracles and the fascination that even tiny and seemingly negligible things in life can create.
I may sound a bit strange or even corny, but I guess there are times when it is just fine to sound strange or corny. On my harshest days it sometimes helps me to just do tiny things like holding the door open for somebody else, give someone a smile or write something to someone. Not everything that helps me in times like these involves other people though. Maybe I'm just totally weird there, but sometimes when down I can just pick up a stone, look at it and end up with my mind making up entire landscapes in the structure of the stone and thinking of stories (and don't get me started about what it does to my mind and mood and perception of my problems in life when I watch the nightly star sky (which I got to admit I rarely get a chance to do in the light poluted city
). Such story thinking may be a kind of "escapism" but so long one keeps the difference between reality and fiction mind there is no harm in it at all (that's probably the meaning of what my signature lines say).
The first other land before time fan I ever met (both online and in real life) was from Australia too and her accent was somewhat similar to yours.
