Hi Nova!
It's really great to have you back here! 
It will soon be my turn to move out from my parents as well. By early November I'll leave them and my hometown. It is not like I was moving a huge distance away though.
I hope for you that the kid made you start something that you can finish to the end (zero a day).
Yeh its really funny. He knows exactly what hes doing. He will loose the remote or a game boy game or some thing just to get me to put out the cigarette. I have experienced allot of the little things that a parent does with him to. One day my sister made them all hot chocolate as a treat and even for a 6 year old he has small hands. So of course he uses both hands to carry it to the table. The cup gets a little hot so he goes to shift hand position a bit and spills it on him self getting scolded in the process.Not to serious thank god but he started screaming at the top of his lungs. I swear i must have jumped over the table. My sister had already grabbed his shirt to keep it from being worse. his mom came running and got his shirt off and a wet towel too cool it while my sister ran for the burn cream. So hes freaking out im freaking out pretty much every one was. Not much you can do but try to get a child's mind off the pain from it. It hit me fairly hard cause one of my best friends in school got 2nd and 3rd degree burns from sauce total freak thing old stove with rusty legs that just gave out when he was in the worst place possible. A little before the burn he went to sit on the couch to play his game boy that was in the little wooden cigar box i gave him a week before and blasts him self right in the chin. This made me oh man that one is my fault for giving him the dang thing and he gets a cut from that. Next day not to long after he leaves for school and me for work the puppy they had for a week hung it self. First day of school we failed to relise we forgot to lace up his other shoe normally and it was to late to fix that so he had this really bad week and i had a bad week to cause he did. Then the other night he was suppose to share something with his sister and would not so i try to get him to do so and had to get a little insistant with him which made him a little mad at me.
First thing in my mind is all crap now hes mad at me and this really sucks. He did end up letting his sister have it but he like gave me the silent treatment for a much to long 20 minutes and would not even look at me.
That night i sat and talked to his mom and said i never under stood till today with tyler the old saying this is going to hurt me more than you and now i fully understand and believe it. Now all i can think of is that the cards life delt me never lead me to having children of my own. But then again while i may not have i do have 3 kids pluss my own real grand nephew in my life and you know what it all makes up for it. When i got so excuse the language pissed at my dad that day many months ago i did not know where my life would lead. But like so many have said every thing happens for a reason. I know what that reason was now looking back on that day earlier this year and i thank god that this all happened.
"Once long ago according to legend there existed a race of dragons who believed that children were the most important thing on this planet and children should come before all else. Protect the child and your protect all that is important in life"
While the dragons spoken of likely never really existed those couple lines are very much real and full of meaning.
Some years ago i was ready to give up my freedom maybe even my life all to put a stop to abuse happening to a little girl while working at a fast food joint. This scum of a dad back handed his little girl for asking for fries. It was then i seen 5 dark bruises fresh bruises on her arm as she reached for her face where her dad hit her. At that moment i was ready to jump the counter and kill him or at least put him in the hospital. My manager stopped me. I went back to the fryers. He then started cussing her and threatening her. At this point i pressed the burner over ride button on those fryers to kick the temperature up again i was going to do him serious harm or cause his death. Again my manager stopped me and motion the assistant manager to come over and sent her to the office to call cps.
In those days i had no strong bond with any child blood relative or not and i cared not what may happen to me. I would kill to protect any ones child i would die for them i would give up my freedom for them. Now how ever with tyler and his sisters i am more reserved while i would still make sure to put a stop to abuse i am much less willing to give up every thing. Simply put i will not allow harm to come to a child but if i am dead or in prison that would hurt tyler and his sisters and my own flesh and blood grand nephew.
I am how ever willing to give up any thing my job or my simple silly things. If i would have to sell off my knife collection or my bike or what have you i will do so and i will do it with no second thought or any thought for that matter. And you know what i would even be happy to do so heh.
