Dear GO5,
I'm very sorry for all the troubles I've caused you. All of you have been very nice and understanding to me, I'm very sorry for all the trouble I brought in. About half a decade ago I joined GO5, I was suffering from a lot of trauma from rejection and bullying. It was not my 1st forum, not only did I cause mayhem in my arrival but some people actually chased me all the way here and wrecked slight havoc.
After staying here despite the warmth everyone gave me I continued to be very confused. I was very sad and often took it around the forums as there was no place for me to vent. Everywhere I was people discriminated me and even I found it hard to believe that I was even a single bit sane. I might have given up on myself but some members here didn't. In the end I let all of you guys down doing stuff like escaping from my home and vandalizing a school.
This 4.5 years has been very traumatic for me but its finally over. Amidst all the chaos did I fine a very ironic form of happiness. For a long time I had not experienced such a welcome. In the very heart of a disciplinarian country that branded me insane I managed to secure a job in the military. I couldn't accept it originally that I had to become the very thing I hated to survive having left home but then I realized that I wasn't alone in this. Many soldiers had a lot of problems having no where left, the army drafted them.
Its unusual, I have been very happy the last 3 months being with my fellow combat brothers. I have a bed and some allowance and I'm able to resume my collection hobby knowing that all rations are free. Helping charities and being part of rescues and ops together with my buds I have found happiness and warmth I never felt since this place.
I've learned many lessons in the last few years, even though I'm still mixed about my decision to fight for the very thing I hate (my country) I have found myself the happiest ever doing this. Its really confusing but great at the same time.
_______________________
G05 I thank you all for all that you have done. I'm very touched by your heartwarming care to me in the past years. I'm tearing as I write this
you guys made me feel accepted for the very 1st time. I'm so sorry for much of the disappointments. I really wish to come back but it would be very hard due to the situation I'm in. Also I feel guilty coming back here after the mess I did. I'm very sorry for those who I have hurt esp Mumbling and Saft.
Mumbling: I remembered we acquainted before GO5 on youtube. I partially joined GO5 because you are someone I could trust. I have really created a mess in the forums you were in. I am sorry I wish I could make it up to you, maybe in the future if I get a chance I'll come up with something but times to short.
Saft: I don't even know how to start, I really ruined stuff around you really bad and every time I think about it and how you still gave me help brings me tears. I was so touched when you brought me a help line after all my troubles to you, this I can never forget.
Thank you GO5 *bow*
P.S This isn't a leaving thread but more of uber inactivity maybe a post once in a year or 2 >.<
