...I do believe in the Creator, and hold a few views that the Christians do. This seems to be the most misunderstood point - I hold a strong tie to Yahweh-shua, just from a Hebrew (Israel) point of view...
...I never said I was leaving, landbeforetimelover. Just that I was hurt because I'd realized what I'd said. I was hurt because that was the wrong thing for me to say. And I took it out upon myself. We've just gotten off on the wrong foot here, I think. (Possibly more than once, though that's debateable, and I don't feel like doing that.) Yahshua would not do that; I felt as though I'd failed Him. It's not a very nice thing when you've been searching out super-hidden things, and you say ONE wrong thing, and boom, it feels like the world comes crashing down on you. ...My only meaning was that, since I came up from out of them, I knew their ways, and I'd learned SO much more... Such things that they condemn... But that I found, that some of their things, actually contradict the Scriptures. That's all.
Sorry, I edited out some of my things because I was so upset. I thought I was gonna have a heart attack yesterday... See, I suffer from the occasional axiety attack, due to my traumatic past... And, yeah, it kind of spiraled out of control. That's why I changed everything... My avatar, my member title (I changed it to "Thoughtless Moron Who Posted Something Stupid," then "The Dreamless Outcast At The Gang Of Five Lurking In The Maggots," then, after talking to Mumbling a bit - before our MSN chat - to "I Can Feel My Heart Beating Again...") Yeah, this was a major thing for me. If that dream were to die, I would have no reason left to live... I believe that He gave me back my passion for The Land Before Time, as a gift to warm my heart again. I'm tired of not caring. :^.^: This was huge, guys - I even posted a couple depressing things on other topics - in particular the "Poetry" thread - that I have to now explain, like this. I'm sorry for the huge misunderstanding.
Now, look at my member title; it's changed a bit again... I may change my avatar back, in time... After these wounds heal. Time by itself heals nothing; sure, we need time to heal from bad experiences, but time without healing, will not heal anything. (Sort of redundant. Heh... *Thinks of Ruby's personality again* Yeah, I can identify with her...) "Coming Back to Life... Just Give Me Some Time..." is what my member title now reads. That's exactly what's going on. I am coming back to life; it was as though I had died yesterday; if you don't have a dream, you don't have much, you know? *Cue Pink Floyd's "Coming Back to Life* This has been extremely traumatic for me. But, after talking with Mumbling... Wow. I can feel my heart beating again. I wish you well, landbeforetimelover. No hardships, no quarrels. ...But sometimes, we have things we'd be willing to die for, you know? I'm kind of a "weird" mix. Again, I'm sorry. Please accept this as a token of peace between us.
"And the Most High said unto Moses, Ahayah-Asher-Ahayah. And he said, Thus shalt thou say to the children of Israel, Ahayah hath sent me unto you... This is my name forever, and this is my memorial unto all generations."
1953-2011... One day, mother, I shall see you again...
