Hello.
This is my new "personal life news" thread, to replace "my sucky life/sucky current life situation <_<" Because I want a new/optimistic sounding title than that old, sad, depressing one. Because it doesn't stay "sucky and sad". It change as time goes on.
Currently, I'm still at $8.25 an hour at the grocery store still bagging, putting carts away, and on some days, I do some cleaning chores in the afternoon/evening there. The busy season is slowing down and the Winter tourists are starting to go home back up North. Still, i'm getting about 28-31 hours a week, which is not bad at all for a part-timer.
Health-wise, I need to work on cutting back on drinking so much soda, my mom says I have a gut on me, and that I drink way too much soda and need to slow down and not drink so much all the time.
Yes. I weigh 213-214 pounds.
I need to really cut down on drinking so much soda every day.
Money-wise, it's still tight. I'm still hanging in there, but still earning only $8.25 an hour at 23 years old. (I still think i'm working for chicken-feed pay/nothing, and need some encouragement.
I know i'll have a different and MUCH better paying job sometime in the future. You know i'm not gonna settle for an $8.25/minumum wage job forever... come on!
What's been getting me down (and i've said it before) is that I can't believe i'm approaching 24 years old, about to enter my mid 20's and still make a lousy $8 an hour part time, and think that i'm a loser/nobody. Sometimes I think "Oh God Jared, you're gonna be 24, and you're working for chicken feed pay at $8.25 an hour. bagging groceries/putting carts away/cleaning floors/bathrooms... You blew it! You're a loser/nobody."
This is what I should think in my head:
"Jared, it will get better in the future for you, you are not a loser, don't feel so sad, down, depressed, and feel that you're worthless/working for nothing. Be happy of what you might become/do in the future
, and not be all bummed down or feel useless/pathetic about what you're doing right now. It'll get better."
"Things change in time, Jared. Don't be so sad. You can be somebody if you apply yourself. You won't be bagging/working at a grocery store forever. This is only a "starter" job. You'll have a much better job(s) and be earning a lot more money in the future than what you're getting right now. Don't feel like you're worthless and that you blew it. You haven't. You're a really smart guy. This grocery job is just temporary. Things will get better. You will be a better person and have a better job in your future. Think positive."
And that's what I need to do. Keep positive. I'm a good, smart guy. I'm no loser.