Well, I sort of gave myself the freedom to...I was restraining myself, but figured I wouldn't officially take a break from LBT until January...maybe. I ended up being drawn back into watching the parts of movie 10 with me---I mean, Bron in them, cause I really like the guy...like people here like Pterano. It's a strong attraction...
So this ISN'T permanent thing. Yeah, I feel real stupid, setting up a new account and all. I just...god, I just wanted to be Bron. But I've sort of come to realize that it's not what you call yourself online or put as your avatar that makes you yourself. And the way I feel about Bron...yeah, it's that attraction to cartoon animals I'm still having a problem with.
I am so sorry about today. I feel terrible about it all. I did something sneaky and despicable, and came crawling back to something I'm trying to break. And I feel even worse if I tricked you into thinking I was coming back.
Well, I need to break this addiction, and sticking around isn't going to help. I know most of you will miss me, but it also matters how I feel about being here, and my days of enjoying being a part of the gang of five ended a while ago. I had a good run, but now almost nothing good comes of it.
I won't say goodbye, since I already did a month ago. Instead, I'll just say I'm sorry again. And if I feel that pull of attraction towards Bron or any other cartoon character, I'll force myself into putting my foot down and say, "NO!" It's harder than it sounds. I know it's alright with everyone here, but I hate it and won't accept it. And I feel HORRID right now doing this behind my mom's back. Even worse, when you guys unbanned me a year and a half ago!
Ugh...I feel terrible. Wish me luck somewhere else in life!