I'm so unsure...

Sky · **Reply #40 on:** October 30, 2010, 03:57:00 PM

Quote from: Karmarsi,Oct 30 2010 on 02:32 PM

And my art s not just here, I been on deviantart nearly 3 years and not many seem to look, nor glimpse, at it.

Hey, I've been on dA for almost four years now and you have already more deviations and views than I do.

So don't worry about people not looking at your work.

Besides, views are not the most important things of being an artist. The joy drawing art is!

Mumbling · **Reply #41 on:** October 30, 2010, 04:24:18 PM

Yeah you got way more views than I do too and I'm on DA for at least 2 years, probably 2.5... Really you're not doing that bad!

Don't drag yourself down, girl. Not worth it!

Pangaea · **Reply #42 on:** October 30, 2010, 05:42:13 PM

Quote from: Karmarsi,Oct 29 2010 on 07:10 AM

Of course I trust him, he's very trustworthy. He's never lied to me or me anything. I believe I'm naturally jealous since I'm not exactly too nice to look at,so I guess it's pinpointed at my unconfidence due to mom again ( thank you for calling me names all my life >.> )

At the risk of invoking a clichÈ, I'd say that if he really loves you, and if you're as close as you say, then your looks shouldn't matter much to him. And it seems to me that you have plenty of qualities to make you appealing to him: your kindness, your affectionateness, your openmindedness, your honesty, your artistic talent, your creativity, and so on.

Still, I know WAY too well how it feels to be insecure; it's not an easy thing to overcome.

And honestly, your artwork is amazing. Like I said before, I'm not a Sonic fan, so for me to give you feedback on your art would be like a lion asking a shark what kind of antelope it thinks is the tastiest (I can appreciate the medium, but have no experience with the subject on which to form an opinion), but if and when you make some LBT fanart, I can guarantee you a fan and a consistent reviewer.

Speaking of art, I noticed that in your DA journal you expressed disappointment that no one else on DeviantArt made you any birthday artwork. If it would make you feel any better during this difficult (to make an understatement) time you're going through, would you like me to draw you something like a belated star day and/or sympathy card?

Paradise Bird · **Reply #43 on:** November 02, 2010, 06:24:07 AM

Being controlled and hated by the society I can understand your frustration. It hurts when who was meant to be your closest turns their back and decide to accept their own believes that you cannot change and be better.
Never forget this feelings out live them as revenge. Live better and never contact this people again, if those people die, rejoice burn their gravestones they never deserved you and have attempted to ruin you.
Be strong and brainstorm, find opportunities and live better, when you are able to do that than it is time for revenge make sure they know you are living better than them. Make sure you have accomplished more than them. Put them down like they did to you and let them feel the pain.

When they get desperate or sorrowful ask them to beg in the storms make sure they fall sick, get your case to the media and your experiences and your revenge is complete.

Unlatch the gate which has cast you to the underground of your social society and show them your hate, only then can change be inevitable.

Pangaea · **Reply #44 on:** November 02, 2010, 07:55:55 AM

Um…No offense, Paradise Bird, but personally I don’t think that most of what you said is very good advice. If you were to find a person who had wronged you in the same position that you had once been in, and made them suffer just so they could know what it was like for you, what would make you any better than them?

You definitely have the right idea that Karmarsi should sever all contact with her mother after she is able to move out, but she should not go to the trouble of ruining her mother’s life just to get back at her. Holding on to the bad emotions that her mother caused her would only prolong the pain. Better to just move ahead with your life; learn from the past, but otherwise put it behind you.

This pertains to your own problems as well, PB: don't obsess over getting back at the people who were cruel to you; just move on with your life and avoid making the same mistakes they did. I wish you the best of luck.

Nick22 · **Reply #45 on:** November 03, 2010, 12:55:38 AM

Pangaea is right, on both count. Revenge dioes nothing in the end. Karmarsi, you must make a permanent break with your mother, as soon as possible. It will be a blessing for you if you do so..PB, once you are out of Singapore, things should improve for you. I would suggest coming to America, but i don't know if thats possibkle financially for you.