Well this is very embarassing, but I have a confession to make. I wouldn't be able to do this anywhere else because nobody else I know is as accepting and hopefully understanding as you guys. Well, here goes nothing:
Obviously there's been much discussion about the awards this year, mainly because of the topic noname started. Well after reading it, it made me realize something I should have done a while ago. I am very ashamed to say that these past couple weeks I've been very frustrated with the awards, much like noname. I have no idea why I let the idea of winning an award get to me, because I fully realize I shouldn't. I understand that it's not what you get for doing something that makes you who you are, but really what you do instead. I've been such a fool lately for thinking this way, and I realize now that my thoughts are all wrong and completely ignorant. I am so sorry that I had this impression on GOF, as it has been one of the best places I've ever visited on the internet, and the majority of the people here, including the mods, have become some really great friends.
To make matters worse, I privately made my emotions public to one person because I felt the need to get them off my chest. After realizing I was being a complete and total ***whole of myself, I need to apologize to this person. He knows who I am talking about, and I don't want to reveal their name because it would make me feel even more embarrased. I hope they is reading this, and I just wanted to say I am so so so so so so so sorry for everything. I should have never sent you those countless pms about the awards, as I realize now they were stupid and above all not your business. I thank you so much for opening yourself to me even though I really didn't deserve it, and I hope you can forgive me and that this doesn't change how much I treasure our friendship.
To all of GOF, please forgive me. THIS I needed to get off my chest as I have felt nothing but guilt these past couple weeks. Everything everybody has said is true. It shouldn't and doesn't matter if I win an award or not. I'm just glad to be a part of this website. Once again, congratulations to all the winners. You guys really deserve it.