Pterano, Malte, vonboy, Cancerian Tiger: Thank you. It is warming to hear that you think so highly of me (far better than I've been deserving of these past several months). Honestly, it comes as a real surprise to me that anyone would speak fondly of me anymore, what with me being so negligent of my friends on the GOF.
Pangaea, I doubt anyone but yourself even sees why you would not be accepted. The question what would cause for you not be accepted by someone really beats me. I don't often talk about people without them present, but frankly I am not lying when saying that I never ever heard anything but very positive sentiments expressed about you; sentiments which I share 
The most "critical" thing I ever read / wrote about you was concern about you wearing yourself out too much while trying to please everyone and seeing like obligations what should only be voluntary fun. Please relax Pangaea, we love you 
Also never feel obligued for a chat (in case this may be what you are worrying about). It is only an invitation, not a challenge 
I'm hardly wearing myself out on the GOF; it's the fact that I've hardly done anything at all on the forum since June that bothers me. Also, did you receive the e-mail I sent you on January 15th? I explained in that message the reason for my chickening out on a Skype conversation, but since you didn't respond I wasn't sure you got it. (Not that I'd blame you for not responding; it took me a month to get around to sending that message; I'm surprised anyone can stand to talk to me at all. :unsure:)
Yeah, Pangaea. I don't know how you can think your not accepted on here. You keep thinking so low of yourself, though no one on here seems to share your pessimism in yourself. It's really quite baffleing to me.
Hey, do you have MSN or Skype? Idk, maybe you'd like just a friendly little chat sometime. I'm not pushing you or anything of course. Only if you want to.
I do have Skype, but I'm so shy that I haven't used it to talk to anyone outside my family. A couple months ago I mustered up the courage to ask Malte for a Skype chat, but ultimately I wimped out, deciding that I wasn't ready after all. Someday I do want to try to talk to other members via Skype, but given my downright pathetic level of shyness, I don't know when that day will be.
I don't recall anyone saying you're not accepted on the GOF, Pangaea :unsure:. I think that, coming from a fellow Aspie, it's in our nature to question whether or not we are accepted into social circles. I find myself doing this often, including on the GOF, but having the confidence and self-esteem to tell yourself you're a good person who deserves friendship and acceptance goes a long way . I hope you're not discouraged by anyone, as I have never heard anything negative about you on here .
No one has directly said anything that made me think I was unwanted or disliked (not yet, anyway), but I strongly suspect that many of them are disappointed in me for failing to fulfill promises I've made to them for so long. I've barely given any art or writing feedback in ages, take forever to respond to messages and PMs, there are at least three members I promised star day cards to long ago that I have still failed to deliver, the "In The Land Before Time" RP is at a standstill thanks to me being so indecisive and sporadic on what and when to post, and I haven't even responded to my own "Ask Me" thread since October. And I keep balking whenever I do make an attempt to work on these things.
Some days I'll think to myself "today I'm going to get this thing done!"; I start writing, and make a little progress, but then become unsure of how to continue, start getting nervous about how my post will be received, take a break with the intention of getting back to work once I've calmed down, get sidetracked, and before I know it the day is over and I'm too tired to continue.
My self-esteem has gotten so bad that I'm afraid that even talking about myself on the forum, or even drawing attention to myself just by posting, makes me look like a selfish person who just wants attention. I mean, I
do want attentionóit's horribly lonely and painful to not be noticedóbut I don't want to inconvenience people or make them waste their time (and perish the thought of getting them to talk to me out of sheer pity), or annoy them by sounding like a complainer, a braggart, a fussbudget, or a know-it-all. After all, I may have problems, but they're only because I'm a deficient weakling who can't handle or keep up with the real world; the other members here have much more serious and difficult problems than me (housing, money issues, finding and keeping jobs, family drama, etc.), and if I were in any of their places I would never survive.
I'm sorry, I don't mean to turn this thread into a topic about myself :unsure: (just PM me if you want me to remove this post). If any of you have anything else you want to say to me, why don't you post it in
this thread I made a while back for the express purpose of explaining what's going on with me and apologizing for my innumerable faults and mistakes (so that I wouldn't have to clutter up the rest of the forum with my complaining)?
